Monster, Leave Me Alone!

One of the biggest heartbreaks I have ever experienced is hearing my baby cry out, "Mommy! I'm scared!"

"Back in the day" of being a new mom,  I would rush in with my invisible sword, and defeat the imaginary monster.
But over time, I realized that I want my baby to be a superhero, too!
"Monster! Leave me alone! I AM NOT SCARED.

See, the reality is, that I don't want to be a hypocrite. I don't want to just preach and teach, and not believe, let alone do what I encourage others (especially my own child) to do.

So right there, I admit:

"Cynae, I'm scared."

Immediately, I began to take inventory-assembling a roster of things which I realized I had fear.
My unwritten list looked a little something like this:
Crying, I embraced my fear-I welcomed it with my admission it.

I held it.
I wrestled with it.
And then...

I decided that the time-the age, the year, the moment in life, has come to transform it.

"Monster. Leave me alone. In Jesus' name, I AM NOT SCARED."

If I truly want to inspire others....if I honestly believe that my life's mission is to "help", then I cannot do that holding on to a laundry list of things that I can't control.  

-Every day could be my last
-Any doctor's visit could be the one that changes my life
-One decision made by someone else could leave me unemployed
-A few missing dollars here and there, and the house, car and other things could be taken away

But so what?

Living in the could be has been exhausting.

A scripture comes to mind for a repeat visit in only a matter of weeks:

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind".

Just in case you are wondering, that's from 2:Timothy 1:7 (NKJV)

I've quoted that scripture for over thirty years. But it only spoke to me four weeks ago:

As someone gifted in the art of writing, words are important and God is in the details.  As my biblical lightbulb comes on, I am shown that power, love and a sound mind are  related. 

And again, just in case you were wondering:

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Somewhere between my Biblical revelation and Miriam Webster, I have come to the conclusion that the presence of fear in my life consequently weakens (or cancels out) not only my ability, capacity, capability, and potential to do what I have been charged to do with my life, but it directly enhances the strength of anything that could hinder (my input and output of) love, as well as my ability to think critically and reason for myself.


"Monster. Leave me alone. I AM NOT SCARED

As my daughter's mother and first teacher, I am in a pursuit to teach her there is indeed, NOTHING that is greater than her:
greater than her strength
greater than her ability
greater than her capacity
greater than her potential
greater than her competence
greater than her future
greater than her ability to be at peace

Nothing.
NO THING.
Period.

And  the same goes for her Mommy...

ME.

This, however, is my "movement". 

This is my work in progress. 

 I CHALLENGE you. I challenge you to search yourself, pray, and position yourself to embrace your fears and start the journey to transform them.  

What, on our journey of could be can we actually control?

Nothing, really. Nothing but ourselves and our responses to the possibilities of the "could be."
We can either exhaust ourselves fearing the unknown possibilities of things which probably won't happen, or we can live in the "So what if they do..."-weakening the bond of such fear that plagues many of our lives.

With this in mind, I challenge you to join me on this "monstrous" journey. I am committing to taking the next seven days to BEGIN wrestling with my fears so that with God's help, they will be transformed and so will I. I realize that this is just the start of a journey that will last a lot longer than seven days. However, as I have learned about myself (and other creative entrepreneurs), beginning the journey is usually the hardest step.

  Don't be afraid! If you can't do it alone, find someone (counselor, pastor, friend, family) to walk the road with you. There is no shame in holding a helping hand as you journey to self-empowerment.
 
"Monster. Leave me alone. In Jesus' name, I AM NOT SCARED."


                                               What are your fears? What has been causing you to live fear of what could be?
                                                                    What are you committing to begin tackling this week?
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